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Elizabeth Fowler - Write On
Musings from a Hungarian Australian American
Rainbow
Tuesday, July 15, 2025
Saturday, March 9, 2019
Creativity Abounds in Las Vegas
“Because the world is round
it turns me on . . .”
So begins the Cirque du Soleil The Beatles – Love extravaganza.
Last month, my kids whisked me away to Las Vegas as a
Christmas/birthday surprise overnighter. Wow!! What a transformation from my
previous trip in 1970 when all small-town Vegas sported was a quaint strip.
I was blown away by the creative explosion that is Las Vegas
today, and not just with the Cirque du Soleil show, though that exuded a wealth
of creativity in and of itself.
My kids were seasoned tour guides and delighted in showing
me the sites along the strip. The hotel architecture astonished me, my head spinning
from the glitz and glamor: The Bellagio with its intricate classic mosaic
floors, and its stunning fountain, the water swirls like harps—tugging at my
heart strings; The Venetian with its canals, bridges, and singing gondoliers; The
Paris replete with its Eiffel Tower; and The New York Hotel boasting
skyscrapers, a Statue of Liberty, and a Coney Island roller coaster. And yes,
my son persuaded me to ride on it – the up-and-down as well as the sideways 360
rolls – the whole deal. I never thought I would ever dare go on one of those
crazy rides – but heck, in Vegas I felt like a kid again.
Our two days in the city fell during the Chinese New Year,
and every hotel lobby was festooned with elaborate oriental decorations
illustrating the year of the pig. Creativity abounded in the designs and the
ornate flower arrangements – it looked like a miniature Rose Parade!
We even rode in a Lyft driverless car – yet another example
of creativity – this time technologic – at its finest!
Ah, but the The
Beatles – Love show! I had a continuous grin on my face during the entire
performance!
What depths and cascading layers of creativity! It all began
with the songs originally dreamed up and orchestrated by the genius Fab Four.
Then came the sparks of ideas emanating from the Cirque creators that connected
the Beatles music to the Cirque du Soleil format.
What followed was a fantasmagorical waterfall of expression:
the music arrangements that connected the Beatles original tracks with segue
orchestration; the script that connected the acts with the songs; the fabulous
sound, projection and light systems that dazzled; the artists that dreamed up,
the sets, the costumes, the makeup; the impressive infrastructure that raised,
tipped and rotated the stage and platforms, that moved a van and a VW bug,
suspended performers with ropes and cords; the machines that spewed
red-white-and-blue confetti and floated a sheer, humungous filmy curtain over
the audience. That’s not to mention all the behind the scenes managers, stage
hands, all creative in their own right.
And what about the people that managed the copyrights, releases
and contracts? One might think these individuals to be less creative, and more
practical, but then again this production introduced a new concept merging a
world renowned group with the Cirque organization, and there were surely
elements of creativity involved in the legal fashioning of contracts,
agreements and copyrights, all needing to be finalized and fool-proofed to the
last detail.
Our culture abounds with creativity and it’s up front and I
found it visually mind-blowing in Vegas: over the top, elegant, sensual,
sumptuous, voluptuous, and decadent.
That’s all fine and good – or not fine and wasteful,
depending on how you see it – but how can we channel creativity into helping
humanity and the earth? How can we use our creative talents to equalize the
economic extremes: to balance the haves and the have-nots? How can we create
ways to solve global warming, develop clean energy, clean up our bespoiled
environment?
Is the problem that our creativity has gone amuck in the
world? Or does it merely flow where it will? If creativity comes from the Divine
as Julia Cameron in The Artist’s Way
suggests – is Las Vegas and all its excesses a reflection of the Divine?
“What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas,” so the saying goes,
but I want the creativity that happens in Vegas to NOT remain in Vegas. My deep
desire is that creativity be channeled into helping humanity and the earth, and
I believe that this is already happening. Creativity knows no bounds and I
think it is spilling into all areas of life, and into every corner of the world.
I am reassured by that belief. Many are creating and implementing solutions to
our serious humanitarian and environmental issues, and they are fueled and
heartened by the notion that:
“All you need is love, love
Love is all you need . . .”
Sunday, January 6, 2019
GETTING IN TUNE WITH MY SELVES IN 2019
“I AM MY OWN ENTERTAINMENT CENTER*”
- Getting in Tune With My Selves in 2019
*A quote by
Krishnamurti to convey that with his meditation and awareness practices, he was
constantly and joyously entertained. I use his quote here with some irony . . .
With an all-star cast
of my inner selves.
In the car in the gym
parking lot.
Everyday self: I found a parking spot. The lot’s not too
empty, not too full. Oops, I forgot my glasses, but then I did pass the driving
vision test, so that’s okay. I’ll only be in hot water if I have to read
something.
Complaining self: oh, I’m aching to begin with. Why am I
doing this? I’m not making any progress with my workouts.
In the gym.
Judge self: just do the work, whiner. Get on the damn rowing
machine and don’t stop till you do 200 calories and 4,000 meters.
Zoned out self: doing the work. Getting through it. Football
on the telly.
Vacillating self: should I weigh myself, or should I not?
Bummed out self: My weight’ll be up, I’m sure of it.
I weigh myself.
Judge self: 145 lbs. Christ almighty. You are hopeless,
absolutely hopeless. All your striving over the past few weeks has been for
naught. You will be a beached whale in Hawaii. Well done you nutter! You can’t
keep on a program worth toffee.
Persistent self: do the work, just do the work.
Ring pulls
Sadist self: do more of them
Persistent self: do the work,
Push ups.
Sadist self: do more of them.
Persistent self: do the work, then do one-legged sit stands
Sadist self: do more of them
Judge self: even though you’re doing more of them, it’s not
enough. It won’t make a difference.
Bummed out self: my hip is hurting today. Over the long
haul, it hasn’t improved. Damn!
Persistant self: band pulls, just do it. And do the floor
exercises. And now the stretches. Ouch!
Encouraging self: you did it. You did a good workout.
Pessimistic self: you’ve done it before, and it hasn’t
really helped. Why are you even bothering?
Bummed out self: and you are still limping.
In the car
Persistent self: go home. Eat light cause you are going out
to dinner tonight.
Judge self: you need to do your laundry. You need to do your
bills. You need to keep moving – do more exercise. You are not doing enough.
You are not motivated enough. You are the same old, same old.
Analytic self: take a naproxen. You don’t have to have this
much pain
In the shower
Judge self: you are in the shower too long
Nurturing self: stay in the shower, feel the heat on your
back.
Creative self: Ah-ha! Write a play about your different
parts. Use the Krishnamurti quote.
Monday, November 5, 2018
Healthcare Coverage -- Easeful or Aggravating?
I recently read The Nordic Theory of Everything and was
amazed and heartened by what the author, Anu Partanen, revealed about the
Nordic and American systems. More importantly, her theories resonated with my
own experiences in medical practice.
Partanen’s
perspective, backed by several annotated and well documented studies, is that
when populations in the Nordic countries pay taxes, and a streamlined
government administers those taxes into healthcare, disability, retirement, and
primary, secondary and tertiary education – for everyone – the population then has, in fact, more independence and more
freedom. People aren’t tied to jobs because of the need for health insurance;
parents don’t mortgage their houses to pay for their children’s education;
people don’t go into hock and get stressed out when they have to pay and care
for their aging parents; and school quality isn’t dictated by the neighborhood
where people live. When these core needs are taken care of, people are free to
base their relationships on what Partanen terms “the Nordic theory love”, and
not on dependency and obligation.
And, by the time you
figure the American out of pocket costs for healthcare, tuition, disability
etc. etc. added to the taxes paid, the amount Nordic populations pay in taxes
to pay for every one of these services is quite comparable – and equitable.
That sounds pretty intelligent to me.
With respect to
healthcare, it’s universal and uniform, and therefore the administration costs
are streamlined. There is no privatization, no advertising, no competition, and
no convoluted calculations for what’s covered and what isn’t.
I wrote about my
experience as a physician with the misdirected explosive growth of
administrative complexity in my memoir Lonely
Refugee. Here is an excerpt:
When I began to
work at Group Health [in 1984] there were no treatment record forms (TRFs) or
billing forms to fill out. All I had to do was see patients and write good
chart notes – good by peer review standards. My practice kept me jumping for
sure, especially on days that I saw up to thirty patients in eight hours, but I
spent most of my time coordinating patient care and leaving clear tracks in the
charts. Back then there were no copays, no deductibles, no exclusions that
patients were obligated to cover. All patients paid for were their monthly
dues. That is all they paid for! And there was pretty much one single coverage
plan – no deluge of coverage options from which to choose, and through which to
navigate. One basic healthcare plan served practically all. At the time, I
didn’t realize how lucky I was.
Twenty years
later, myriad levels of administrative complexity had seeped into my practice.
I had treatment record forms I had to fill out to document the level of care I
provided, and to account for every procedure I performed, from paring corns to
performing endometrial biopsies and suturing lacerations. A plethora of billing
codes for every possible diagnosis and procedure inundated my work life. I
could only charge higher diagnostic billing code levels if I followed the
required documentation guidelines. I had to write my clinic notes in minute
detail, using the exact mandated language. If I failed to follow the strict
rules, I risked Medicare fraud charges: billing for work there was no evidence
for in the chart . . .
Hundreds of
administrative non-patient care positions and system “upgrades” surfaced to
cope with the tsunami brought about by the new changes. I was astonished at the
magnitude of the upheavals: clinics were remodeled to create registration areas
where newly hired clerks collected copays and determined insurance coverage;
business departments exploded with coding technicians, billing clerks, and
computer programmers; huge infrastructures materialized to develop, monitor,
update, and maximize data capture and optimize reimbursements. And to keep up
with and compete with the nationwide healthcare chaos, Group Health expanded
its insurance coverage options and now offered literally hundreds of plans – so
confusing, that I no longer knew how or whether the tests, medications,
referrals, and procedures I ordered would be paid for by my patient’s coverage
plan.
When patients
asked me, “Is that lab test covered, doc?” I could only shake my head. “I don’t
know. You’ll have to check at the business office.” . . .
Patients would
then have to decide what they could pay for and what they couldn’t afford. I
had to let them know the risks of not getting the tests done, or I had to
scramble to find less expensive care options. All this required extra time, and
inconvenienced both my patients and me. Care was occasionally compromised when
patients didn’t check back after heading to the business office, or if they
waited until they could come up with funds to pay for the medications and tests
that I ordered. Many times patients became disgruntled with the costs they had
to bear, and some became irate when the drugs or tests to treat their
particular illness weren’t covered. I resented having to spend more of my
clinic time documenting widgets of care and acting as the gatekeeper and
mediator with my patients.
I was sickened to
see how, with all the new changes, the focus had shifted away from patient
care. Our medical staff meetings that once provided educational case reviews
and clinical lectures, were now replaced by coding and charting classes to
train providers on how to comply with the Medicare standards and maximize
reimbursements from the government and insurance companies. The coding
specialist frequently showed up at our meetings, giving us the latest code
changes. For diabetes alone, hundreds of coding options were created – and they
were updated almost weekly. The administrators had to make sure that we were
entering the newest and most complete classifications. Learning these codes,
taking the time to make sure all the parameters needed for the appropriate
level of service were included in my charting, keeping up with the frequent
updates and “corrections,” consumed more and more of my time. It drove me nuts.
When the codes
were first introduced, the office billing clerks corrected the ones that I had
flubbed and added codes that I couldn’t figure out. These employees were
godsends! But when electronic charting was initiated, my backup system went
poof! I had to enter every darn diagnostic code myself. To my chagrin, the
computer wouldn’t allow me to order any labs, prescriptions, X-rays,
treatments, or referrals unless I entered the exact diagnostic code.
Many a time I
would flounder when with a patient. “Just a moment, Mrs. Smith. I’ll have to go
find the right code number so I can order your X-ray . . . I’m so sorry for the
delay, Mrs. Smith. Let me quickly finish up here and get you on your way.” But
by now, I would be ten or fifteen minutes farther behind in my schedule.
“Crap,” I would think to myself. “I’m going to be here until all hours
tonight!”
I didn’t question
that the electronic charting system improved access to medical records and
therefore served patients and clinicians well. What I was at odds with was how
most of us docs were staying at least an hour or two later to finish up with
our charting and paper work. I had to ask myself if the high complexity level
of billing, coding, coverage, and reimbursement systems also served to create
better health, and I knew the answer to that – I didn’t think it did! And that
made my extra work harder to accept. My disillusionment with the medical system
grew.
What do you think?
I highly recommend The Nordic Theory of Everything, and I dearly
hope that the U.S. will come to its senses and institute more effective and
efficient medical care – and education – and retirement – and disability –
coverage.
Tuesday, September 25, 2018
The Traveling Dress Photo Shoot
I was up before four
a.m. to help with a photo shoot. Stephanie had been awarded the honor, along
with seven other professional photographers, of showcasing a layout taken with a
“traveling dress” that was mailed from photographer to photographer, over several
weeks. We drove to her chosen locale: a solitary dock jutting into Lake
Washington. My inspired, on fire daughter began shooting well before sunrise.
I was her assistant,
tasked with guarding the camera and tripod that she carefully positioned before
running out onto the dock, swaying, prancing, dancing, her layers of tulle skirts
swirling, flowing, and glowing in the backlight. She set the camera to take one
hundred shots at a time, reset the hundred over and over, moving the camera here
and there, checking the angles, the exposures, scrunching her face when not
pleased with the results, grinning with an I
like that one . . . pretty! with ones that captured her creative spirit.
In the flow, she
braved splinters and gravel on her bare feet; her legs seized with charley
horses as she crouched and squatted; she gazed into the searing sunrise for
that look-directly-into-the-camera picture. She chuckled when the voluminous
layers of tulle snagged on weathered planks, and dipped into the water. The “holy-water”
drops on the gown served as grace-filled glitter, a blessing on her project.
At one point, a policeman
drove by and motioned to Stephanie. He was concerned when he saw her dashing
toward the edge of the pier, thinking she would jump. She and I later mused at
the vivid image of “doing a Virginia Wolf exit from the world”.
My heart clenched to
hear Steph’s response to the officer: I’m
just playing.
My hard working and
relationship challenged daughter could so use more lightness, more playtime in
her life. She deserved beauty, pleasure, and amusement. She deserved to be
admired, cherished and loved.
Stephanie shot for
over two hours, taking thousands of images. Self-portraits galore, each showing
a different aspect of the glory of the woman she is: beautiful, regal,
talented, sensitive, vulnerable, strong.
I glow in her glory.
Here’s the link to
her website post The
Traveling Dress
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